Finding out you have others inside of you is
profound. You learn that you must acknowledge them. If you suppress them, you
end up feeling empty and depleted. You feel you are living a lie. I felt
honoured to meet all of my personalities, even the ones that I didn’t like or
who scared me. Each one was created for a reason, to help all of us
personalities survive.
A wonderful thing happens as a multiple takes the
time and energy to meet and speak with inner personalities – they start to see
their own innocence, especially held in the child alters. They find parts that
are sweet and parts that are powerful. They start to see their own uniqueness
and learn to find warmth and compassion for all the parts. They may even fall
in love with themselves, as bizarre as that sounds, by the personalities
falling in love with each other. They learn how essential each part has been
and how hard each has worked to save the person. It is absolutely profound.
Letting my
personalities speak is the only way I can tap into my own personal truth. If I
don’t let these guys talk – and if I don’t listen to what they are saying –
then my life is hollow and empty. I would be living my life for society,
sacrificing my own truth, so that people wouldn’t look down on me or label me
as a freak or a sucker who has been manipulated into believing I have a
disorder..
When my
personalities finally talk, it feels so natural. After letting one of them
talk, I feel more connected to myself, more real, more true to who I really am.
.. Maybe someday I will be able to express all my feelings in one voice – maybe
I will always have to use different voices to say what I mean – but I don’t
think people should try to silence those voices simply because they don’t
believe in MPD. (Understanding Multiple
Personality Disorder see BOOKS, ARTICLES)
Survivors
do have one clear choice: They can take back their rights. They have the right
to feel all the pain they experience inside. They have the right never to want
to speak to another human being again. They have the right never to want to be
a “good, productive citizen” in a world where they were bitterly betrayed. They
also have the right and responsibility to respect the rights of others. In
summary, they have the right to the feelings that resulted from the abuse. They
can rage and grieve about what happened. They can take action to make their
lives exactly how they want. They may even choose to love and trust again. They
can learn to trust the people who prove to be trustworthy. They won’t own the
shame of others. They take their own beliefs and opinions seriously. They
become their own best friends. (Understanding
Multiple Personality Disorder see BOOKS, ARTICLES)
